Sinful

i guess its time for me to catch everything up. i havent really made a good entry in awhile.
*at the end of september, i went to san antonio to be with a friend who was in the hospital and bring him home. (he's doing quite well now, and im glad). i really liked san antonio, but it was a very long drive. took 9.5 hours to get there, but only 7.5 to get home... its 530 miles or so. traffic sucked because i got there right at rush hour, and there was a wreck on the I10 and one of the I410... right where i was needing to go. then i came home.
*then i got a job... in retail. its totally not me. im not sure ill like it but ill try it out for awhile. i can always quit. my first day was monday. i dont work again until sunday, and then after that i work wednesday... there's only four of us that work at this store. what im probably going to hate most about it is having to deal with teenagers. i particularly cannot stand teenage girls.
*i house-sat for the schwan's lady, karen, last week. from thursday until sunday night. she has a great bathtub and pays me well. otherwise i wouldnt go. there's no cable, no computer, no internet, and no telephone at her house. oh, and also its out in the middle of nowhere. and i mean _nowhere_... its a fifteen minute drive from my house, if im speeding.
*saturday i went to my aunt's wedding in lubbock. i also got to meet her new husband's brother. it was kind of nice to have someone at the party who was 'like me'. that doesnt happen to me ever. there's so much id like to talk about this, but id rather not put it here, it would be much too longwinded. i did have a great time though. probably because i spent most of it with someone 'like me'. goth people need to stick together. there arent nearly enough of us around. maybe thats why we scare people? *shrug*... also, while i was in lubbock, i bought some new clothes. i did really well. i actually found dress pants that are long enough (im 5'11"). i can never find pants long enough.
*last night i went to see my sister at work. i was wearing my normal clothes - black. (along with black nails, jewelry, etc) and this couple at the counter in front of me turned around and stared. then the man had enough nerve to say to me 'i like your COSTUME.' i just stared at him. then stink pipes up, 'costume? thats not a costume. she's looked like that since i can remember. at least for the last 12 years or so. halloween is every day for her.' bastards. THANKS STINK FOR STICKING UP FOR ME! i hate people like that. costume, my ass. i wanted to say 'costume? this isnt a costume. but i like the idiot redneck look youve got going on, how long did it take you to pull it off so well?'
*i went out to the school today. i like those kids, even if some of them bug the hell out of me. its like im a special prize and they all want to jump and climb all over me and crowd around me in a circle. this is one of the main reasons why i dont have offspring, aside from medical reasons. i am one of the childless chosen, and i prefer to remain that way. anyway, the kids were going on and on about my black clothes, my black hair, my jewelry, my paleness... im thinking they dont 'get it'. im a bit on the goth side, but i was born this way. its a part of me, its who i am.