school, life, bleh.
**today i had to get up early, bah! early means before noon. i got up at 740. not TOO early, but still about 4 hours earlier than ive gotten myself used to. i hate not being able to sleep at night.
**so, this morning i got up, showered, dressed, made myself look semi-decent, and went to macroeconomics. at first i wasnt too happy about it. i had this instructor last semester and dropped the first day. i didnt like her "YOU WILL CALL ME MA'AM" bullshit. today she didnt do that. shes a lot more relaxed than she was last semester. i told her after class about how im sick, she was very kind and understanding and said she would accomodate me in any way she could, provided i bring some "proof". considering all instructors have to have proof to make medical accomodations, i dont mind. i have plenty of proof.
**then... i went and made a payment on my tuition for one of the universities (the local one). there went $50 of birthday money. it was worse when i walked into the bookstore and found that there were only "new" books being sold for my econ class. that was another $94 of birthday money. i had six dollars left for lunch. yay. *grumble*
**i went home. i ordered my global business textbook, it was $72. not so bad. better than econ. all my other books i either already had or they were given to me. it should be here tomorrow. then, i got a call. my new glasses came in!! but i think i look like a dork/nerd. wanna see? click here. or here.
**this evening i went to business law two. not so bad. i miss my old buddies from last semester though. the thirteen of us were really cool together, most of the time. now theres only six and four of the people are new. betty and i scared the hell out of everyone telling them TRUE war stories about the instructor.
**all in all it was a good day but i was in a lot of pain. it took everything i had to get to and actually stay in class. enjoyed some face to face interaction with "friends" from last semester. but i hurt so bad. even with the pills, i still hurt. its definitely not fun. and i get kind of sad. everyone else has a life they can go to. mine has no escape.
**i get lonely. i understand that people have to work. i wonder if they know im here, on the other side of the screen, waiting for them to come home from their outside life. a life i dont currently have. a life i am jealous of. i remember being happy and not in constant pain and going and doing things and having fun at work. i miss it. i was talking to someone about this earlier. thanks for being here for me. its appreciated more than you probably know. you're very dear to me and i love you. the same goes to everyone else who has supported me through this. you guys are great and i enjoy your friendship and i care for each and every one of you. it means a lot.
